dear God

dear GOD
some time i fell like iam fakeing u out like i go to all these christan activtes but somehow i seem to let u down over and over and iam so sorry for that umm some time i feel like not doing this christian thing any more BUT I HAVE to cuz it the only way i can see your face and trust me i want to but GOD sometime i get sceard when i think about death or u comming bac cuz i need to know wat is happening and when they will happen but u wont let any one know till it happens but there a reason for that aint it so i get pannic attack maby its cuz i dont really understand it well enught yet there are days that i just want to go to like my lil word and just hide just so i dont have to hear about it but i know that it wont work cuz no matter what u will be coming i dont mean to be sceard i just am but i know that every thing will be fine thank u GOD for every thing my famliy frends
p.s. dear GOD plese help jake let him know that you /we love him and keep him safe and come home safe to tori and to us
amen
phil